In the book Alchemist by Paulo Coelho the Shepherd realizes his destiny in the form of a dream. He was to look for treasure at the pyramids. In the story, he meets an old man– the King of Salem in disguise who influences the shepherd to follow the path to his destiny. As the Sheppard had no money to pay for his voyage across to Africa, he had to sell his sheep. He thought it might be difficult to do so but as he says to the old man he was surprised to see how fast and how easy it was for him to find that person to buy the sheep.
“That’s the way it always is,” said the old man. “It’s call the principle of favourability. When you play cards for the first time, you are almost sure to win. Beginner’s luck.”
“Why is that?”
“Because there is a force that wants you to realize your destiny; it whets your appetite with a taste of success”
Have you read books on manifesting what you want? To be honest, I haven’t really read any. I don’t know, the idea of manifesting success or money by “acting rich” didn’t really appeal to me. Or how about trying to manifest being healthy and slim by telling yourself each morning that you *are* slim. Uhmm the trouble with that was whenever I looked in the mirror I just *knew* I wasn’t! (Please note that these books *do* help and have an abundance of useful knowledge, I’m just sort of generalizing here)
When I knew what I wanted to do, I felt this sense of relief that was palpable. It was like this huge burden left my shoulder. Turned to vapour and just disappeared. It felt so good. However, like anyone I knew I had to be practical too. I couldn’t just leave my job and go off on an adventure to the unknown! I would instead just see what happened. After all I now knew what I wanted. Life and the Universe would definitely have to show me the way….right?
And you know what, it did! I started to actually tell people what I wanted to do. Where my dreams lay and I said it with a smile peppered with some amount of fear and doubt because however much I wanted it I still wasn’t very sure if I could do it. To be a free lance writer, to learn to be a spiritual healer and to share; but the doors *did* open! A colleague of mine hinted that she knew some people in the medical publishing field and she thought I’d be great as a medical writer! An ex colleague told me she thought I’d do great as a life style writer (after taking a look at my last blog – may it rest in peace). My sister asked me to help write about a private session for one of the practitioners at the Violet Flame. I got excited. It was happening!
I was manifesting!! It gave me little big thrills!
And then…..nothing. Nada, zip, zero, fizzed to a complete stop.
You see, I only figured out what I wanted. I didn’t actually *do* anything. I wasn’t moving forward instead I was stuck where I was, doing the same thing. It was just a taste of what I wanted would feel like but since I wasn’t doing anything about it I’m thinking the Universe said “Alrighty then. I’ve made my move now you gotta make yours” and then clammed up!
It’s not enough just to want something; it’s not enough to know what you want. It’s a start, a BIG start but that is just the first step. It’s no point buying the books on how to write, it’s no point having a blog which you rarely visit because you’re so busy feeling despondent that nothing is happening, it’s no point attending workshops after workshops when we don’t actually *do* something. When we don’t do something about what we want it’s usually rooted in fear and doubt; and those two have very little place in the equation.
For my situation what I had to do was stop with the dilly-dallying and jump right in. For what I wanted to do I needed some flexibility of time. At the time my life was just draining every ounce of energy I had. Have you ever spent an hour or two just not doing anything but waiting? Wishing you were somewhere else? Well, try 9 hours a day for 5 days a week. It’s one of the more potent energy zappers I know of.
The thing about finally discovering what you want in life and having a taste of it is that you start *really* wanting to live it. You want that feel good feeling to be a constant. But, we have to be practical about it too. We still need an income to pay the bills and feed the family. That means finding a sort of balance and also asking for what you need when you go after your destiny.
I’ll tell you what I had to do and hopefully it will trigger a plan for you too.