We have read these, we have heard these spoken of, we sort of know this but how in the world are we to do this?!
It comes in a variety of ways but the gist of it is that we are beautiful beings of love and light, that when we love and have compassion for others, the vibrations radiate out like the ripples in a body of water touching others, lifting up the energies of those around us, affecting in a positive way our situations and the environment within our circumference and beyond.
Here’s the thing though, it’s one thing for me to know that I’m a being of light and love but quite another to actually feel any love for that particular moron who cuts right in front of me without using the indicator or those silly dare devils who drive through red lights, especially when my mind goes on a rampage of how inconsiderate and dangerous they are, doing that.
Or how about when I inadvertently come across an article on the atrocities going on in my country…Bible burning, raiding of Hindu temples, disregard and disrespect for all others in the name of safe guarding the Muslim faith and the like…on Facebook! (So much for not reading the newspapers or watching the news…there’s always my trusty Facebook! D’oh!) I mean, I get pissed off…and I don’t even have to read the full article, just the title with the little snippet that comes with it. HOW am I going to feel love and compassion for those who are clearly acting like playground bullies (and feel free to add other colourful words)…how?? how??? HOW?
The questions continue…
AND then, there is this other niggling doubt which I have, which is, how do I know if it is what I am meant to be doing? Does closing one’s eyes to the things which are happening around me by not watching the news or reading the newspaper mean that I am in fact running away from my responsibility as a citizen? Does not taking affirmative action by way of standing up and voicing out my grievances against the tyrannies mean that I am running away from my responsibility? Does it mean that those who, in their opinion doing their civic duty by spreading the news of what is happening around us, are just feeding this negative hell hole my country is going into?
How can we do both? How can we not feed this fire of anger and hate; and at the same time fight for our rights? Do we need to fight for our rights? ….Dear reader, if your mind has started twisting and turning into knots giving you a headache after all that, I truly apologize, because you see…that how I felt too!
And then it happened…
So anyways, one morning (actually it was on a Friday the 29th of August) as I was driving to work, listening to this awesome Chinese song and preparing to LOVE all the patients who I would meet that day ( because it was either that or get irritated about half way through my 12 and a half hour work day..hehe..ooops) this thought just popped into my head. Again, I wish I could say it felt like a lightning bolt on a dark stormy night shedding a strong and powerful light on everything surrounding it…but nope. It was more like a switch being flicked on and then…there it was. No trumpets, no cute Archangel Michael winking knowingly at me or handsome Archangel Metatron smiling…just there. The seed just plopped down and began to germinate. (Can I just digress for a minute and say that I really would appreciate a more dramatic realization in an awesomely NICE way once in a while? Please? Can I? …Thanks!)
I realized that there IS an opposite to LOVE. Love is not “just IS”. There can be an absence of love, ergo an opposite to love. And what do we have when we remove ALL the labels that we put on emotions? Only the two basic feelings : LOVE and….FEAR! That was the seed which unceremoniously plopped into my mind!
Feelings…are not the exact same thing as emotions, according to what I have read. Emotions are triggered when our buttons are pushed…good or bad. Feelings are deeper. It’s more…substantial (?).
And it’s true isn’t it? Just like Love has many facets to it like compassion, patience, care, love, joy, motivation, respect and so on, if we really dig deep down into all those negative emotions like anger, hate, disrespect, intolerance, bully behaviours , sadness, melancholy and the like…we will find fear.
So in other words…when I feel anger towards an individual or a situation at the crux of it, I am actually feeling fear and that fear is manifested as anger! Sooooo….if I were to look at an individual who is aggravating me and pushing all the wrong buttons within me, as someone who is fearful then it would make it easier and simpler for me to actually feel compassionate towards him and therefore demonstrate an aspect of love!!
The Experiment : Part I
I fit all the stuff that brought out negative emotions from within such as anger (of course), guilt, sadness and this chip on my shoulder where I feel like I’m losing out on something….and examined them all. What I discovered was that each and every time I felt those emotions, there was an underlying fear within. I couldn’t escape it! Awesome! Now…part 2 of the experiment…
This time I fit some of the terrible things which are being done in my country…like the ones I mentioned earlier. This time I tried to put myself into their shoes. This time instead of giving myself a migraine trying to understand “Why??!!”, I put on the cloak of fear. And you know what? I got this fleeting sense of understanding. I could feel the fear of being displaced, of being stripped of all the things I presumed was the truth, of entitlement and of being left alone. Now, I have no idea if that’s what these politicians and those who blindly follow their biding actually felt those things BUT it did give me a sense of understanding from where they might be coming from. It gave me this visual of souls being trapped in this life where all the greatness and beauty and love has been forgotten; instead there is this feeling to total chaos, confusion and underneath it all this hopeless sense of fear.
That is when it happened…that is when I felt the small light of compassion for them. And it made me feel so sad.
So I now imagine, what if I could consciously remind myself of this, every moment of every day, then it *was* possible! It would be possible for me to send out genuine compassion and love to them and to everyone else! It could be possible for me to send compassion within me, for myself too!
I could help in raising the vibrations of my immediate surroundings, causing a ripple effect out to my neighbourhood, to my city, to my country and to the world by reminding myself that we are all beautiful ,beautiful souls trapped on this dimension because we have forgotten our true heritage and power; and are living in utter chaos within, which inadvertently manifests outwards as negativity, fearing everything and anything instead of living fearlessly. Because when we live without fear, there is no other option but to live in the light of love!
It’s no use until you do a NIKE
It’s one thing to gain some insight into something as profound as this, it’s another thing to start applying it in our lives, well at least it is for me. So, I’ve been trying to apply this in my daily life.
It takes a conscious effort to do this. Sometimes I remember, sometimes I remember after the fact and sometimes it completely runs away and hides in the closet, but I am hopeful that as I keep reminding myself and as I keep doing it, it will become a part of my life.
I don’t know if this is something new to you, dear friend or something which you’ve already figured out…just to let you know I’m usually the one who turns up late to these sorts of “parties” ( and definitely not in a fashionable style either, I just sort of stumble in…hehe), but if you’ve always wondered how you can stand up for your rights, or learn to show love and compassion especially when all you want to do is throttle the person or persons with a sledgehammer, then maybe this way would make it more practical 🙂
Maybe this is how citizens of the world can learn to “fight for their rights”. Not play into these activities that feed the flames of anger and hate; but instead stand up for our rights by understanding how to do so with love …or at least with some aspects of love such as patience , understanding and compassion. Maybe instead of demonstrating on the streets, we could in a group or even as individuals raise the vibrations of love and light so that it can dispel the darkness by believing in our own power, trusting in it more so now in this age.
And I feel this is what “Live live fearlessly” is about.
At this point it would awesome if you went on ahead to read the posts linked below by three bloggers who talk about love & fear. These posts made me feel more confident that what I felt and learned was on the right track. 🙂
- My Truth as I see it by SueDreamwalker
- The Ripples of Evolution – What waves are you making? by SueDreamwalker
- How Paralyzing is it? by Eric Tonningsen
- What is your perspective by Karen Kubicko