When we forget (Part 2)

Another wondering post, a post to serve as a reminder too and strangely enough these thoughts joined another thought (which has been posted) all while watching a staff at a restaurant cleaning the legs of a chair.

Pondering the meaning of life, for sure.
Pondering the meaning of life, for sure. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

To check out Part 1 click here 🙂

For all of what I write and say, for all the books that I’ve read and will read, for those certain times when someone has told me  I’m profound and am wise (this is something I still have a hard time believing…but that’s just another thing I need to get over) I know I still have much to learn and apply in my life.

Because Life doesn’t allow me to forget. I don’t say this in a negative way, I say it with gratitude…I CHOOSE to say it with gratitude. Life reminds me to not take things for granted. She reminds me of this when I write about things or when at times I read my old posts, that falling asleep was easy..it’s the staying awake which needs us to put in the effort. It’s not a struggle. It’s not meant to be a struggle. As Stuart Wilde says in his book” Life Was Never Meant to be a Struggle”, putting effort into something doesn’t equate to struggle. Putting effort into something means to be always aware, always conscious and to not expect “it” to fall from the sky onto your lap, whatever “it” is.

Life reminds me to not get too big headed and think “I’ve got it”.

She also reminds me, because I need the reminding, everyone starts from some where. I started from a place and a time when I could actually feel my heart shrivel up like a raisin, when  if I had seen a psychiatrist I’d have been given antidepressants. She reminds me when I’m plagued with self – doubts, what it feels like. Somewhere within me I feel she reminds me of these things so that when I do break those walls down completely I won’t forget. I feel if I do forget then Life will send me another reminder…maybe something the likes of a brick wall instead of a lone brick.

Sometimes I feel it’s so easy to forget, not only did we all start at some place and time, but that we all progress at different speeds. It’s easier maybe to shake our heads with incomprehension at those who don’t seem to “get it” which this amnesia provides us instead of thinking back to those painful times. Maybe it’s just a survival mechanism? It can be a slippery slope down to the land of self righteousness too, I think. When we forget.

I know this because even when I still struggle with self-doubt, when I still am learning to trust completely, there will be  breakthroughs. Not big explosive ones, but breakthroughs all the same. I’d feel oh so fine and dandy. I’d feel great! When someone tells me they still feel doubtful I’d say, “JUST trust”…thinking, why don’t they? Within a week Life dishes me a situation when it all comes crashing down again. When I would have to re-evaluate, contemplating and reflecting, exercising my role in this journey with more humility and understanding.

When we think we know it all, that we’ve gotten it, something comes along to shake us up. It’s a good thing. It helps us remember that this journey is one of continued movement – a continuous ascension-  , that when we think we’ve reached the finish line , there’s another opportunity to ascend further and it also serves to remind us that we too were like that once….

I don’t know if this post will make sense to anyone or if it’s too cryptic…I just wanted to put it out here to remember, 🙂

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23 thoughts on “When we forget (Part 2)

  1. Is this the three- parter Shree? It is awesome that a man cleaning chair legs was your muse. We can get inspiration in the most amazing ways. I still think that you can be too self-deprecating, but that’s just my opinion. Somehow I doubt that you would forget, but you said you did in your last post so I guess I believe you… 🙂

    I can see the flip side where harping on one’s humble beginnings can undermine confidence and progress. Balance, per usual, is typically the best approach.

    Keep wondering and asking questions 🙂

    hugs,
    Linda

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    1. Hehe…oh yea. Not so much forgetting as maybe not being aware. True. It’s not so much harping on it…it’s more of just being aware that we started from some where too…I think it’ll make one more…benign? LOL…what a weird word…but that came to mind so am going with it 😉

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  2. “…when someone … told me I’m profound and am wise…”

    That’s a lot better than the other extreme – when people go around calling themselves ‘profound’ or ‘wise’. You see it on blog bios – people proclaiming that they want to “share and teach” – presumptuous that they set themselves up as ‘teachers’.

    What takes the cake is this guy who calls himself a ‘deep thinker and mystic’ – deep thinker, okay, we can be generous. But how does one get to become a ‘mystic’ – I’m still learning how to be unstupid, let alone reach such lofty levels as mysticism.

    I haven’t got it – perhaps I’m seeking in all the wrong places, perhaps I need to delve within. What I need is a teacher 🙂

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    1. Ah Eric, I can so relate to that, Spiritual egoism. From my own spiritual ego lol I often roll my eyes and think, who the heck do you think you are, when reading those kinds of statements. Dear angelic Shree is so humble and genuine, there is no spiritual egoism in her. lol Me, now that is another story, it’s there but I try to hide it. lol

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      1. Hehehe…Angelic Shree? LOL. I really don’t think I deserve the angelic..teeheehee..I can be quite the devil at times 😛 But thank you! thank you for thinking (or feeling) that I am trying to come from a place that’s genuine because sometimes I am fearful that I sound as if I know everything of what I am talking about when in reality I am also learning…you know?

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    2. Hahahahaah! I have no idea how one becomes a mystic though I did read an interesting book about Christian mystics throughout the ages. Most of them were great thinkers…they sat with themselves a lot too…wrote quite a bit and never called themselves a mystic..teehee.

      As for teaching..well here’s the thing. I think..and feel that we are ALL teachers and students. Everyone of us are either teacher or student at different moments in our lives. In fact there will be situations when we are teaching someone something while we are learning from the other at the same time. But to proclaim oneself as a teacher…well..nah…I don’t have the confidence for that. In fact I hope I don’t ever have that much of confidence 😛

      I like to use the word “share” that’s a lot nicer no?

      As for the teacher..well there is this saying that goes: When the student is ready the teacher will appear…and you know what? A lot of times we think of it as a person…but don’t we attract enough of situations that actually are our teachers?

      When I read the book, Autobiography of a Yogi..none of the Guru’s considered themselves…Gurus. They were only called so by those who studied with them..it was different. They were all so humble 🙂

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  3. From the moment of birth to the last breath I believe we’ll always be a bit unsure Shree, for there’s no room within ourselves for that surety, as humans we always seem to be searching for that extra something, that goal, that prize we know is slightly out of our grasp, just far enough away to keep us striving to obtain our dreams. We fear, we love, we search, always., to be better than we are at this moment in time, a jigsaw moment I suppose. heh? hugs aplenty to you, and have a great Thursday … xxx

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    1. Lady Peeeeeeeeen!!! *runs across the virtual world to give Pen a BIG hug*. I have missed your presence on my blog 🙂
      Thank you for your comment too! And yes I agree with you, which is why I keep trying to get it into my thick skull that I am on a journey…it’s a learning process…and such. *grabs another big hug* 🙂

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  4. It makes perfect sense Shree at least to me… And love your thoughts….I think we are often pulled up with a reminder that we still have much to learn… And our goal posts are forever changing.. Change is what keeps us fresh, for if we didnt move or learn we would grow stale.. 🙂
    Love and Hugs Sue xoxox

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  5. If there’s one thing I’m certain of, Shree, it’s that I’m so full of doubt it’s actually untrue! I have to work at trying to eradicate the doubt: I think I’m getting there, and, just at the vital moment, up pops doubt again and I have to start all over. Again. Just have to keep moving forward and going for it! Will I ever be free of doubt? I doubt it! Will I ever give up trying to be? I doubt that too!
    Life’s funny, really, isn’t it!

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    1. LOL Tom! Love your comments! I agree…life is funny. And you’re right. I don’t think I’ll be free of them either but I will welcome that because in a strange manner, I feel it may just keep me grounded 😉

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  6. No matter how much we know, we never can know very much. So we’ll always feel a bit inadequate. If we’re lucky we can be an expert in an area or two. Maybe one day we’ll all be mind-connected to the internet and have instant access to all the information in the world. But all that knowledge won’t necessarily make us undertand things any better.

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  7. For me it got easier as I clocked up the miles and the years.
    Miles are a bit longer than kilometres, I still remember those long miles,
    it is the now I must not forget.
    It is getting easier as I get closer to my destination..
    It may be because I actually have found wisdom or I am so stupid I think I have.
    I am not going to worry life is too wonderful to squander it on worry.
    Thank you for your thought provoking blog.

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    1. Thank you for reading and your thoughtful comment Jack 🙂
      I think that as we grow into our life journey and becoming more aware, we definitely acquire more wisdom. This was more of a reminder to have more patience with those who are starting…not so much for ourselves…you know?

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