So, how does one start a blog post after disappearing from the face of the blogoshpere for so long…
Maybe a “Hello!” ? Or maybe a “Hi!”?
It’s been ages. More than a few ages I think. I don’t even know if those I called friends on here are still blogging or if they have left this space of sharing for good or even if they’ve taken some time off, like me.
And..what have I been up to?
Well…sometimes I feel a lot but most times I feel it’s just the same old story of being caught up with “stuff” and because of that letting some things slide by. Before I knew it, time that waits for no one has just whooshed past.
I’ll be honest…I’ve been wanting to blog for quite some time now. I just never did. On my Facebook, I said that it could be because of feeling afraid to blog. I hadn’t for so long and I didn’t know if I had it in me to. I also mentioned something else. And that’s true too. That something is that since I’ve started “writing as work”, by the time I’m done my brain is just so tired it clamps up. Imagine a petulant child pouting and going, “Nooooooo! No more!! I can’t THINK anymore!”. Yea…that’s about how it goes.
I’m working from home now. A medical writer. I write. A lot. Thing about work, even if it is something you started because you liked it (or loved it) is that after some time, and if you ALLOW it to, it kinda saps the joy of that thing you liked (or loved). Unfortunately for me, I have allowed it to…so, my hope and my wish and my WANT is that by coming back to writing here, in this space I call my own I shall regain back that love for words and writing. Because you know, however much the talk is to “love everyone” and “take everything as something good, to expand your soul and experience life, to learn and grow”, I honestly.. totally and honestly feel like going on this mega-rampage and slapping people, including myself. Ha! Always…include thyself, because it is thyself that truly creates thy world.
So yes. Working from home can be AWESOME! However, as I just heard Anita Moorjani say on a Facebook live thingie I tuned into, there’s always a yin to a yang (or a yang to a yin). As awesome as it is, it sometimes feels like YOUR time is not respected. And it’s even worse when you don’t respect your own time – which is probably the lesson right there. I’ve sat in front of my computer from 7 in the morning right to 10 in the night…working. Every thing seems to be “urgent”, everyone seems to think their projects or wants are urgent and if you aren’t careful, you get dragged into the whole drama of the stress and the frustration – yes another lesson to learn here as well, which is how to NOT be dragged into people’s drama even though you are in the middle of it. Reminds me of being in school. You know, when each teacher gave you enough homework to swamp you for a couple of days and you sit in class wondering, “Do they not KNOW that we have like another gazillion pieces of homework to do!!!!”. Yea, like that.
What else..ooo, so…I have another blog that I’ve prepared. This was a suggestion from my sister. It’s currently empty-ish and sitting pretty..waiting for content. The idea is to add my art pieces to it (something like a gallery of sorts) and also to write about colours and their meanings based on the Aura Soma system. Please don’t ask when, but soon…soon…ha!
I’ve learned Qi Gong! And I absolutely LOVE this particular “class” of qi gong that I’ve learned. It’s funny, as in haha funny. If you directly translate the name of this particular Qi Gong movement from Mandarin to English it’s called the “Wild Goose” movement (insert laugh here). But, to make it seem cool, it’s called the “Wild Crane” movement (you may insert a snigger here). Anyways, the reason I love it is because it makes me feel so graceful when I do the movements. I FEEL graceful. I have absolutely no idea if I LOOK graceful, so thankfully when I do practice it, it’s done in the privacy of my room (yes, you may insert a laugh here as well).
I also, in a weird, round about way learned about being in a relationship. It was an online one. It wasn’t..well..it wasn’t a conventional type of relationship, but hey…it was an experience, I have learned from it, I’ve gained a friend from it and overall, I am very grateful for that experience. In fact, it is probably the very first time that a guy that I was attracted to felt the same about me..so yes, that is a good thing, whichever way you look at it.
I’m taking more selfies now. Mhmm, yes I am. I’m vain though. So I take like 10 selfies to get just the one to post up. Ok, no. I take like 4. And it’s all the same angle. And yes, I did laugh as I typed that out.
Here’s the latest. This was taken about two weeks ago.
So, am I going to stay?
I think I am. It’s more of an exercise in discipline and learning to balance my work life and my MY life. It’s an exercise to learn how to do things without being a yo-yo, or like how my sister has described me – a rubber tree. You know the type? The one that swings waaaay to one side, burns out…and swings waaaay to the other side, burns out…then..repeats. Doesn’t realise that there is the middle ground.
So, once a week and not stressing out about it and EN JOYING the process of allowing the words to flow.
Visiting my bloggy friends and enjoying their words, no stress with that either.
Wow, I dun did it! Yea! ~pats self on back~
See you in a week!