Breathe in. Breathe out.
And so it starts, this self decided crazy awesomeness where bloggers have willingly agreed to challenge themselves, their creativity and their use of words, to blog a post every.single.day…for 30 days.
When I participated in this journey 3 years ago, I was all excited and still very much in my rubber tree mode, you know, the inclination to swing from one end of something (any thing) right through to the other end, completely blind of the middle and more balanced route. I’ll be honest. By the time the last post was scheduled, my brain was ready for a week long vacation in Jamaica with visions of getting drunk on rum and high on weed.
Well, that vacation lasted for about 3 years..ahahahahaha.
This time round will be very interesting for me because of a few things:
- I have a full time job – that if not taken care of (by me) will continue to bleed me dry – as a medical writer (this may be a future post).
- I have other projects that I have set goals for.
- I have committed myself to deal with issues that have been incubating within me for a long, long time.
- I have committed to being a Nano Poblano!!
Linda from litebeing.com commented on a Facebook post about this and she said: “If you are going to engage in this blogging madness, I hope you can devote one post to my modest challenge. Anita, you definitely like to go from 0 to 60 in 5 seconds, metaphorically speaking”.
Yes, she in all her wisdom pointed out some thing very me. 0 to 60 in 5 seconds, metaphorically speaking. And you know what? She is absolutely right.
However, I realised something else. It’s true that it seems like I may have a lot on my plate and yes blogging a post a day does seem like added food on said full plate. Now, this realisation may seem like a “justification” of sorts but I’m going with it.
Here it is – it’s not so much that I should have thought through this with a more rational and less impetuous mind (which ok, I concede may be I should have…I’ll come to this point in just a bit), but it’s more of HOW I approach this month. It’s how I am going to learn to balance between the type of posts I do and how I manage my own feelings of “This is not good enough” meaning “I’m not good enough”.
Even though it does seem like an impulsive decision, it really wasn’t. The reason I agreed quite easily was…I missed writing for the sake of writing. I missed writing in this blog of mine. I missed writing my thoughts and my observations. I missed taking part in some of the writing challenges posed by some of my bloggy friends. I missed visiting blogs and learning from them. I missed the experience that WordPress gave me and I wanted it back.
I’m also working on a very important aspect of growth and that is to stand up for myself. And participating in this challenge and being a Nano Poblano will help me in this. I won’t go into detail about this in this post but just let’s say that having committed to this I will then have to make time for myself. To learn to make myself more important, to learn that only ONE person takes care of me…and that’s me.
And with that…
Cheers to all you crazy awesome Nano Poblanos and yay to all the Cheer Peppers!