Date: 13 December 2011

Date: 13th December 2011

I was looking for something that would tie the spiritual journey to discipline. I Googled here and I Googled there. I scrolled up and down web pages. I gave up and went back to reading some more awesome quotes by Khalil Gibran when I chanced upon this:

“Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul.
If either your sails or your rudder be broken you can but toss and drift,
or else be held at a stand still in mid-seas.
– Khalil Gibran, Il Profeta

When I decided to finally listen to what my heart and soul were telling me (though to be honest, at the time when I finally relented and listened, they were about to take a few hefty bricks and hurl it at my poor self) I made a promise. I promised that this journey will now be on some very new terms. This meant that I would not be pressured by expectations that were beyond my time and my current level of consciousness. I would go with the flow. No comparing where I was in relation to where others in the same journey were. No ridiculous imaginings of waving my hand and conjuring even a cup of tea and definitely no expectations of having coffee with the Archangels within the first week of re-starting my journey.

This time, I would meditate when I felt like it. This time, I was going to get into this WordPress blog of mine and with a smile, delete that “Post a day challenge” button I had plastered on my blog. This time, I was not going to force anything. I would let it come to me, as and when it was time.

I made this decision and promise about a month and a half ago. I (sort of) weaned myself off the hours (and I mean HOURS) spent in front of the laptop in this social network 3-D chat thingy (yes, it would have been easier to just give you the name of this thing, but..I have my reasons), I logged back on to this poor blog of mine, dusted off the cobwebs and posted my first post after more than 5 months and;I started meditating and reading.
 Well…I’ve encountered a tiny problem. The fact is, my inner sloth has been quite active making me a little more than usual slothy at times. In fact, I might go so far as to say that this “going with the flow” thing won’t cut it if you have an inner sloth.
 If taken with an attitude that one can learn from everyday experiences, then I have learnt that being on a spiritual journey, on this path of self discovery, of learning to centre oneself is a lot harder than verbalizing “spiritual journey”. Yes, it is important to “go with the flow”. These things do not happen when you force it. There is always the right time, when a person is ready to accept the next lesson, and the lesson or teacher will appear before the student. At the same time, as everything in life , there is moderation, there is balance. The balance here involves taking it easy with discipline.
It’s quite fine to say that “I’m taking it easy” and just wander about like a lost ship out at sea. No sails up, rudder not working, no compass and just a general feeling of where the path lies. Like the quote says, that reason and passion need to work together, well so does “going with the flow” and discipline.
 I figured I need to learn discipline. To cultivate the structure that discipline brings with it. To not make it too rigid and to allow myself to grow and learn, it should then be tempered with patience. Patience is not the same thing as ” Oh..not tonight. I have a headache. I’ll just be patient and meditate / read / write when I feel like it, when I am inspired to do so”, because that to me is just an excuse to run away from the actual work of participating in this journey.
So..after one and a half months of “going with the flow” sloth style, my next step is to include a little discipline in this journey of mine. To know when to take hold of the reigns and when to let it loose.
I figure if nothing else, I’ll cultivate a positive habit😉

“Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul.
If either your sails or your rudder be broken you can but toss and drift,
or else be held at a stand still in mid-seas.
For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining;
and a passion unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction.
Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion, that it may sing;
and let it direct your passion with reason,
that your passion may live through its own daily resurrection,
and like the phoenix rise above its own ashes.”
– Khalil Gibran, Il Profeta

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