Confessions of a “wallaby” writer

Only because “wallaby” is a lot cuter than saying “wannabe”.

I’m a writer. I mean, I write. I’ve written as a hobby. I’ve written for money. And yet, one thing has bothered me. It didn’t bother me before. It has, however, started bothering me quite recently. To make things worse, I had re-read my last post on here and almost ki.lled myself with embarrassment.

That post was PLAGUED with horrible mistakes. It was as if my mind and my fingers were on two different paths! Seriously…it wasn’t a pretty sight. I corrected it all, whatever I could find. I’m sure if I had another look at it again, and probably at my older posts, I’d be burning a couple of midnight oils to correct them all!

So, what exactly is it that has been bothering me? Why, confessions? And why, a wallaby writer?

Well…

I honestly don’t think I know English grammar. I mean, I thought I did, but I don’t think I actually do.

I know what a noun is.

I know what a pronoun is.

I know what a verb is, and what adverbs and adjectives do.

I know how to write a sentence without totally convoluting (I had to check that word, apparently I’ve just created a new one) a person’s mind. In fact, I sadly do, do write sentences that have not only confused me, but others as well. So, I’m not too sure about this one.

Basically, what I’m trying to say is that, I think I have the ability to write something without someone wanting to scream in frustration or cringe in disgust.

And..that’s about it.

I took a couple of tests available for freelance writers on Upwork. It’s an online platform that caters for freelancers (writers and designers) to find jobs, and for those with jobs to hire…freelancers. ←Cue one of those cringe worthy sentences… hehe.

I’ll be honest. I had to Google most of what the questions asked.

I mean…

Modifiers?

Hanging modifiers?

Clauses…apparently there are more than Mr and Mrs Claus(e) around. It’s like a huge family of clauses – main clause, subordinate clauses, relative clauses, noun clauses..

And phrases? Wow..

Noun phrase, prepositional phrase, adjective phrase, adverb phrase, verb phrase, infinitive phrase (first time I saw this, I thought to myself, “A phrase that goes on and on and on ad infinitum?” Nope. I didn’t guess that one right)..oh and my favourite, gerund phrase (I thought that was German..hehe..I *do* entertain myself sometimes), participle phrase and absoulute phrase!

Like, where in the name of the great fudgisical poopsicle did all that come from?

I am very sure I paid attention in English class…I think. I have never heard or remember hearing such things..ever. Until recently. At the age of 45.

Oh, and the use of punctuation marks like commas, colons and semi-colons. There’s a whole international debate about if a comma should be placed after the “and”, at the end of a list. There’s something called an Oxford comma! (Ok, to be totally honest, I knew about this one for some time, just thought I’d add it for added drama, coz who doesn’t love drama, right?).

So, yea..I mean, I’ve joined a few writer groups on Facebook and well, sometimes when I look at their posts about muses and correct sentence structures and all that, I feel much like a ‘wallaby’.

Then, there are these blogs that I’ve just subscribed to. The bloggers generously share awesome tips about how to be a great freelancer, how to make excellent pitches, how to do up your profile to market yourself successfully…I read through them and I’m like “Damn, that’s just so not me!” I mean, I come from a generation and a culture that looked down at you with glaring eyes and frowning eyebrows if you thought of “blowing your own trumpet”. At the same time, if I didn’t do it, who would!? Right?

And THEN, there are these bloggers with successful blogs that give you tips on how to make your blogs awesome! How to analyse what you write, and how to write them, and what this and how that, and again I go “Damn! Really?”.

For now, until the next “Oh my God, what am I doing?!” moment, I’ve decided to take a chill pill and relax. Focus on what I really want to do. Build up my collection of mandala and art prints. Read! Aura Soma! Start to seriously focus on getting myself in that space of being balanced, of trusting the path that I am on, and do what I love to do.

Because, in the end, that’s why I left a 9-5 job that was eating into my day. That’s why I decided that I didn’t want to get into the rat race. That’s why I made the choice of looking at success a little lopsided compared to the norm.

So, yea.

My declaration is this: I am a rebel writer! I write, what I write! Be damned with rules! (but shall try my best to be a better proofreader of my own work).

~Returns the wallaby back to the Australian wilderness~

NanoPoblano 2017

18 thoughts on “Confessions of a “wallaby” writer

  1. Yes! I relate to this post so much! I went through a similar period in my writing where I felt inundated with writing information and ultimately decided on just focusing on content instead of all the stuff that confused and frustrated me. It helped me a lot to let the technical stuff go, I think. πŸ˜†

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  2. I’ve decided to do #NaBloPoMo on my old blog instead of the fabulous website (with a blog) my webdesigner created for me. I love that new site, but I wanted to write in a place where I felt I could make mistakes. Spelling, grammar… Not on purpose of course. But I know that if I have to combine my daily writing with me being flawless in lay-out and everything, I’m not going to make it this month.

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  3. Yikes! Far too technical for me, Shree, all them writin’ rules. I write as my mind tells me to, and only amend it when I read it back and think wha??? I have a tendency to include three or four different points in the same sentence, separated by commas, obviously, but at the end of it you are left wondering what I am talking about exactly. Maybe I need a hanging modifier or two (no idea what they are though)…

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    1. Ahahaha..I did look up their definitions but I can’t remember them! It’s worse than statistics. At least with statistics, you go “A-ha!” when you are reading about what certain terms mean, even though you still forget them about an hour after! hehe.

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  4. I can totally relate to this post. I think I have avoided a lot of the in depth knowledge relating to grammar rules that you mention simply because I have not had a desire in my life (as of yet) to learn it all and apply it in my day to day writing. I guess it is mostly because I write a lot of poetry and some stories but not much else, which allows me artistic licence to play with the language when I compose pieces.

    I fully anticipate having to bone up on my grammar when I start tackling a novel at the start of next year. I’m definitely someone that is more comfortable focusing on content and then beating the raw piece of clay/written material into shape once I have the groundwork in place. If you know all of the rules that will set you in good stead to become a professional editor of people’s work, I just feel that if you are not in a position where you are required to apply the rules to your writing then there is no point fretting about having to know them all. I see it like learning every word and phrase in a foreign language when the basics (and a bit extra) are good enough to have you conversing with the natives, enjoying the sites and having a good time in the process πŸ˜‰

    I must admit that I do have that situation with other subjects though too. There are gaps in my knowledge that I blame either poor tuition or my own lack of interest at the time. I was only really interested in English Language and English Literature at school, along with Maths up to a certain level. I’ve found that at this point in my life with my own age (39) and so many things to think about with so little time, it makes sense to learn things when I need them, rather than absorbing knowledge for the sake of it. Sometimes this means putting myself out of my comfort zone by setting up a project that stretches me and pushes me to learn the knowledge I need but then this gives me a reason to follow through and a deadline to work to, all of which are conducive and great motivators for the learning process.

    Also when time eventually permits, I am nerdy enough to actually want to read the entire dictionary because I’m fascinated by words, their origins and meanings. The more you know about specific words, the more you can apply a vaster vocabulary to poems, which are extremely hungry for all manners of words πŸ™‚

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    1. Ooh..I loved that you spent so much time writing out that comment! I loved reading it too.

      I don’t know what sort of writer I am, I just know that I like to write..and…well, that’s about it.

      Which is why I don’t see myself as someone who could write a book or poetry or any of those serious writer stuff!

      Writing projects that push me away from my comfort zone sort of scare me as well..

      I’m a little strange..I like reading, I like writing, but…I can’t say that I love words? I like what I see when I read something, the movie or picture that unfolds when I do…

      Oh dear, I feel like I’m sounding less of a writer now! hehe

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      1. Lol you do write serious writer stuff because of what you write on your blog, that is good enough for me πŸ˜‰ Also writing is flexible, if you are not into writing poetry or novels then you aren’t forced to do them to call yourself a writer, since your writing output can be outside of these specific perimeters. You will only really find out what kind of writer you want to be further down the line when you have written lots of it and can analyse patterns or themes that keep cropping up. For me it was inspirational poetry but I had to write a lot of it to realise that and I still get to write other things that I want to as well πŸ™‚

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