When…

When it has been almost 3 months since you’ve written something, anything remotely creative.

When you want to put words to page (or screen, as in this case), but your mind is strangely blank but full of half baked ideas.

When you stare through the window, looking at the sky for some form of inspiration.

When for some reason you feel sleep almost dragging you with it, but you know you’ll be unable to sleep.

When you have all these plans but feel at this very moment, completely unable to form thoughts that have any direction.

When you type the letters, deleting them, re-typing them and then re-deleting them again.

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Date: 6 January 2013

Date: 6th January 2013

I’d like to say that I’ve made progress in leaps and bounds but sadly that isn’t really true. I have noticed that I’m more aware of my feelings, of my actions and that I’m not as perturbed as I used to be about “being left behind” in my quest for growth – spiritually that is. Physically…let’s just say I’d rather not grow as fast!

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Date: 11 June 2012

Date: 11th June 2012

New blog with a new name with no so new thoughts being written (typed) out. My journey has been one of lots of stops and starts, but you know after going through it all I really don’t mind it too much. I’m hoping that I’m learning my lessons with each start and stop. For the past few weeks I’ve sensed some changes in me. They aren’t very big changes but changes nevertheless.

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Date: 7 December 2011

Date: 7th December 2011

Spirituality is something that I’ve always been interested in. I called it a whole load of other things such as religion, the occult, the world of psychic and magic; and karma. Now I sort of know better and just use the blanket term of spirituality which in my definition means anything to do with the spirit or soul. It’s the journey that we take as souls to evolve into brighter light and to become closer to the Source or God. Wikipedia might have a better write up on it, so feel free to click the linked words😉

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Learning to love

ME.

I’m so hoping this post doesn’t come off sounding like a pity party for one. It’s not that I’m not prone for that but I’m tired of pity parties. It drains me and let me reiterate if you are confused, this isn’t a pity party.

I will be honest though, right at this moment my heart feels sad…a sense of heaviness and “they” say sometimes it’s a good thing to let the words flow as a sort of purging of negative feelings. Well this is it.

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My awakening experience and moving forwards.

The Tower card from tarot decks usually signify an event or time in one’s life when the Universe and their life stream / soul / Spirit decide it’s time for the individual to wake up. It may present itself as a traumatic event or a time in  when everything  seems to be falling apart. I also believe that it can present itself as an inner turmoil – like thunder rumbling within the darkened sky heralding a major storm, like the turbulent sea in the midst of such a storm, with strong winds forming huge crashing waves as we grip the edge of the little row boat we seem to find ourselves in.  And, I think that is when we come to certain major cross-roads in our journey, a place where we decide which way we are going to go – sometimes consciously but before that mostly unconsciously. Most times we aren’t sure what we are doing, we’re scared, confused and we stumble along in blind panic trying our best to talk ourselves back into some semblance of calm. Sometimes, there is a voice within us that feels like the glow from a candle still alight even with the raging storm all around us, nudging us towards a certain choice or action. Either way, these times in our lives give us the opportunities to do what can’t not be done. The choice though is always ours.

This is my story.

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