My Journey

Date: 13th December 2011

I was looking for something that would tie the spiritual journey to discipline. I Googled here and I Googled there. I scrolled up and down web pages. I gave up and went back to reading some more awesome quotes by Khalil Gibran when I chanced upon this:

“Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul.
If either your sails or your rudder be broken you can but toss and drift,
or else be held at a stand still in mid-seas.
– Khalil Gibran, Il Profeta

When I decided to finally listen to what my heart and soul were telling me (though to be honest, at the time when I finally relented and listened, they were about to take a few hefty bricks and hurl it at my poor self) I made a promise. I promised that this journey will now be on some very new terms. This meant that I would not be pressured by expectations that were beyond my time and my current level of consciousness. I would go with the flow. No comparing where I was in relation to where others in the same journey were. No ridiculous imaginings of waving my hand and conjuring even a cup of tea and definitely no expectations of having coffee with the Archangels within the first week of re-starting my journey.

This time, I would meditate when I felt like it. This time, I was going to get into this WordPress blog of mine and with a smile, delete that “Post a day challenge” button I had plastered on my blog. This time, I was not going to force anything. I would let it come to me, as and when it was time.

I made this decision and promise about a month and a half ago. I (sort of) weaned myself off the hours (and I mean HOURS) spent in front of the laptop in this social network 3-D chat thingy (yes, it would have been easier to just give you the name of this thing, but..I have my reasons), I logged back on to this poor blog of mine, dusted off the cobwebs and posted my first post after more than 5 months and;I started meditating and reading.
 Well…I’ve encountered a tiny problem. The fact is, my inner sloth has been quite active making me a little more than usual slothy at times. In fact, I might go so far as to say that this “going with the flow” thing won’t cut it if you have an inner sloth.
 If taken with an attitude that one can learn from everyday experiences, then I have learnt that being on a spiritual journey, on this path of self discovery, of learning to centre oneself is a lot harder than verbalizing “spiritual journey”. Yes, it is important to “go with the flow”. These things do not happen when you force it. There is always the right time, when a person is ready to accept the next lesson, and the lesson or teacher will appear before the student. At the same time, as everything in life , there is moderation, there is balance. The balance here involves taking it easy with discipline.
It’s quite fine to say that “I’m taking it easy” and just wander about like a lost ship out at sea. No sails up, rudder not working, no compass and just a general feeling of where the path lies. Like the quote says, that reason and passion need to work together, well so does “going with the flow” and discipline.
 I figured I need to learn discipline. To cultivate the structure that discipline brings with it. To not make it too rigid and to allow myself to grow and learn, it should then be tempered with patience. Patience is not the same thing as ” Oh..not tonight. I have a headache. I’ll just be patient and meditate / read / write when I feel like it, when I am inspired to do so”, because that to me is just an excuse to run away from the actual work of participating in this journey.
So..after one and a half months of “going with the flow” sloth style, my next step is to include a little discipline in this journey of mine. To know when to take hold of the reigns and when to let it loose.
I figure if nothing else, I’ll cultivate a positive habit 😉

“Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul.
If either your sails or your rudder be broken you can but toss and drift,
or else be held at a stand still in mid-seas.
For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining;
and a passion unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction.
Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion, that it may sing;
and let it direct your passion with reason,
that your passion may live through its own daily resurrection,
and like the phoenix rise above its own ashes.”
– Khalil Gibran, Il Profeta

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27 thoughts on “My Journey

  1. Hi,

    Great To See Your story. You have became the Master of Your Own Fate, Captain of You Own Soul.

    Thank You for stopping by my writings.

    -Awesome AJ
    I am the MASTER of My FATE, I am the CAPTAIN of My SOUL.

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  2. as you say, Shree, by being aware … well that’s something… AND I think we all go through this kind of ‘wall’ thing, I had my time away from WordPress, and I didn’t write or do anything creative… I just let myself drift… searching for ‘something’ other than the ‘norm’ … Things just come to a head and… something has to give, I’m sitting here, Bank Holiday Monday, … drinking my first coffee, (need two to get my brain into gear 😉 ) … and the birds outside are singing away like mad… I wish I had their enthusiasm, but I am getting there. slowly, but surely.. Your journey is your personal ‘walk’ through this life… at this moment in time, it’s what you need to do, find yourself and you’re there.. Boredom is your mind, saying “what’re ya doin’? .. get on with something else… ” 🙂 something productive,…. and that’s what you’re achieving in your steps listed above.. … Great uplifting post … and good to have you back amongst us.. (I know I said that before ,.. but I means it!!!) xPenx ..

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    1. Aww thanks Pen and yes we all have our own unique journey specially tailored for our needs. And that the problem with our mind isn’t it? It’s full of little goblins chattering away making us feel inadequate, that we *need* to be doing something, wait for the other shoe to drop and all that stuff. It’s a good thing actually to sometimes just drift and to let be and to go with the flow…but sometimes I feel we need to keep reminding ourselves that it’s OKAY! to do that! hehe. I’m glad to be back 🙂 Missed you and the other wonderful friends I’ve made on here 🙂

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  3. Wow, you sound an awful lot like me. I over analyze things, over plan, have overly high expectations of most things and people. . . Maybe we’re twins!

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    1. Aww Binky!!! *sniff* I feel so special that you would think we were twins! Even if you’re a wombat 😉
      Now, let’s hope you are commenting as Binky and not Chris or Peter! hehehe.
      And you’re so right..I do do all those things you’ve listed out..and what happens is when I’m done with the over analyzing, over planning and expecting too much..I just freeze, get too tired and I don’t do anything! or…what is worse is I will decide to do it but without the same enthusiasm as when I was planning (because I’d be tired) and THEN I’d get all disappointed with the outcome…*face palm*

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      1. Well I was really commenting as Peter! But I do so many of those things like you do. And I often build up something so much that in reality it fails to live up to my expectations. It’s certainly good if you can temper that tendency.

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    1. You’re not a hack 😛 Yes, journeys are long…and yes it maybe uphill..and yes the view is wonderful to see…to take a rest…and then we continue…

      Mandela has a quote on just this climbing hill and life thing! I can’t remember right now..but it’s out there some where 😉

      Your view and my view…both as magnificent…:)

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            1. Ooops…hmmm…..aren’t you supposed to just click on that Linkitz thingie and then follow the instructions? AND copy and paste the code for whichever week’s badge on the side bar in your post…so it links back to the Grid…

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  4. I have not read the whole ‘My Journey’ yet, but the first page is fantastic. Go for it, follow your dreams, I am on a similar path (I am in the process of trying to do the same after losing my job, and am now reassessing my life and what I want to do).

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    1. Thank you, Penny 🙂

      I’m sorry for the loss of your job and at the same time really heartened to read that it’s given you the opportunity to reassess your life and what you want to do!

      It’s scary…I’m sure…and at the same time you show your true strength by looking at it as an opportunity! All the very bestest to you and may your dream flow like a beautiful river and may abundance follow it too! 🙂

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