My Journey

Date: 4th July 2012

Two days ago I officially tendered my resignation at the place that I am currently working.

I have not got another job lined up at another company. In fact, I am leaving the corporate world after a little detour of about 3 years. The person that used to proclaim that she had “lost her patience with patients” has decided to go back to practicing medicine – though this time it will be on a part-time, free lance sort of schedule. In fact, the reason that I have decided to go back to seeing patients is that I needed to gain back my patience with patients.

It’s strange and yet in a way it isn’t. I’ve always believed one should never say never and also at certain point in our life we may be sure of one thing and then do a total 180 degree turn and feel the opposite at a different point in time.

I’d been thinking more and more of leaving the drudgery of  the corporate world. To me it wasn’t fulfilling. To me it was suddenly apparent that the “change” I had wanted wasn’t a change in company culture or change in my portfolio. The feeling of restlessness that had prompted me to change jobs didn’t have anything to do with the job. It was some thing else altogether. I realized that some time ago. I had realized what it was that I wanted to do. I had put my intentions out into the Universe. BUT I wasn’t actually doing anything much about it. That was what I hadn’t realized. I was still in the same type of job doing the same sort of thing – it was just in a different company and with different products.  I was stuck in a rut.

Sure, I had started reading again, meditating off and on; and reducing the time I spent on the internet…but that wasn’t breaking out of the mold. That wasn’t taking the step I needed to get out of my comfort zone. That wasn’t showing my determination of following the path that I want to take.

More and more I kept thinking of how I could break free from the monotony of my life,  find the flexibility of time and some sort of independence to pursue my goal. More and more I kept thinking of going back to part time practice. After talking it out with my sis, I finally decided to just do it – Nike style 😉

Tallied what I would need to maintain daily expenses, called up a couple of GP clinics around my area and was pleasantly surprised to find that they would be interested in taking me on. I still need to serve my 2 months notice so there will be another round of calls to make nearing the end of the notice period. Wouldn’t you know it. As soon as I had decided, as soon as I had started taking the steps…I got my very first little writing project! It wasn’t much, but it was a start!

Am I worried? Well…honestly speaking I haven’t thought about it. It hasn’t been plaguing my mind and giving me sleepless nights. Sometimes I do feel a small sense of wonder that I’m just leaving a stable job with a stable monthly income to pursue something that isn’t even concrete.

Do I think or feel that it is the right move? For now the answer is a resounding YES! It even works out logically. As someone that want to learn to be a spiritual healer , to write on matters pertaining to life and spirituality; and to maybe one day be able to share my experiences and knowledge what better way than to go back to re connecting with patients and their families. What better way to gain back patience and empathy for another human being than to reach out to the physically ill and to spend time talking with them. Doing free lance and part time locum at clinics will also give me the flexibility of time to read more and to work more on myself.

To get back to me 🙂

27 thoughts on “My Journey

  1. Hi,

    Great To See Your story. You have became the Master of Your Own Fate, Captain of You Own Soul.

    Thank You for stopping by my writings.

    -Awesome AJ
    I am the MASTER of My FATE, I am the CAPTAIN of My SOUL.

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  2. as you say, Shree, by being aware … well that’s something… AND I think we all go through this kind of ‘wall’ thing, I had my time away from WordPress, and I didn’t write or do anything creative… I just let myself drift… searching for ‘something’ other than the ‘norm’ … Things just come to a head and… something has to give, I’m sitting here, Bank Holiday Monday, … drinking my first coffee, (need two to get my brain into gear 😉 ) … and the birds outside are singing away like mad… I wish I had their enthusiasm, but I am getting there. slowly, but surely.. Your journey is your personal ‘walk’ through this life… at this moment in time, it’s what you need to do, find yourself and you’re there.. Boredom is your mind, saying “what’re ya doin’? .. get on with something else… ” 🙂 something productive,…. and that’s what you’re achieving in your steps listed above.. … Great uplifting post … and good to have you back amongst us.. (I know I said that before ,.. but I means it!!!) xPenx ..

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    1. Aww thanks Pen and yes we all have our own unique journey specially tailored for our needs. And that the problem with our mind isn’t it? It’s full of little goblins chattering away making us feel inadequate, that we *need* to be doing something, wait for the other shoe to drop and all that stuff. It’s a good thing actually to sometimes just drift and to let be and to go with the flow…but sometimes I feel we need to keep reminding ourselves that it’s OKAY! to do that! hehe. I’m glad to be back 🙂 Missed you and the other wonderful friends I’ve made on here 🙂

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  3. Wow, you sound an awful lot like me. I over analyze things, over plan, have overly high expectations of most things and people. . . Maybe we’re twins!

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    1. Aww Binky!!! *sniff* I feel so special that you would think we were twins! Even if you’re a wombat 😉
      Now, let’s hope you are commenting as Binky and not Chris or Peter! hehehe.
      And you’re so right..I do do all those things you’ve listed out..and what happens is when I’m done with the over analyzing, over planning and expecting too much..I just freeze, get too tired and I don’t do anything! or…what is worse is I will decide to do it but without the same enthusiasm as when I was planning (because I’d be tired) and THEN I’d get all disappointed with the outcome…*face palm*

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      1. Well I was really commenting as Peter! But I do so many of those things like you do. And I often build up something so much that in reality it fails to live up to my expectations. It’s certainly good if you can temper that tendency.

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    1. You’re not a hack 😛 Yes, journeys are long…and yes it maybe uphill..and yes the view is wonderful to see…to take a rest…and then we continue…

      Mandela has a quote on just this climbing hill and life thing! I can’t remember right now..but it’s out there some where 😉

      Your view and my view…both as magnificent…:)

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            1. Ooops…hmmm…..aren’t you supposed to just click on that Linkitz thingie and then follow the instructions? AND copy and paste the code for whichever week’s badge on the side bar in your post…so it links back to the Grid…

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  4. I have not read the whole ‘My Journey’ yet, but the first page is fantastic. Go for it, follow your dreams, I am on a similar path (I am in the process of trying to do the same after losing my job, and am now reassessing my life and what I want to do).

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    1. Thank you, Penny 🙂

      I’m sorry for the loss of your job and at the same time really heartened to read that it’s given you the opportunity to reassess your life and what you want to do!

      It’s scary…I’m sure…and at the same time you show your true strength by looking at it as an opportunity! All the very bestest to you and may your dream flow like a beautiful river and may abundance follow it too! 🙂

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